I feel.

Its gonna be a simple entry with very few sentence.Its just how i feel at the current moment.

I feel ur changing,or maybe u have.

I feel myself having hedgehog's dilemma,which i hate it so much.

Im feeling insecure.,EVENTHOUGH i've lose you 3 years back..and this will be the 4th year which we had never talk at all..

I try to play a better part, for all these years,i've changed..from naive to mature (u still remember u scolded me naive on the phone just because we quarreled about the little fuckin idiot laptop thing,u hang up not even bye).,i've learned about mutual understanding and trust after everything gone..in our r/ship those days,we seriously lacked of this.Ended up,we felt fatique..

Im still missing u now each and everyday,ceaseless.

I've learned how to keep it to myself without letting u know im actually missing u,without letting u knw i've been weak-minded since i lose u..all i keep it to myself,not bothering u anymore..as what i heard ppl saying good future, wonderful marriage are ahead of u,i remained silent,pretending i never know you ,as how u pretended u never know me when we met..its okay for all that..

I've always try to play a better part when i was with u,but when i do,i get all these feelings..isnt it better to stick back to what i used to be,one who doesnt care about anything.

I feel like a wraith when i stop moving on and lay all my hopes on u ,i feel myself so shitty for missing you and worrying bout u so much for nothing i will get,not even a glimpse from u,its such a pity.

I chose it..i choose to think of u even theres somebody waiting for me,i choose recall back the memory when im with u eventhough its heartbroken..

And for all these cause,i will work hard and stay strong,for i've chosen to love u at the 1st place.