night shift 3 am, i was very surprised to received ur call. u claimed that u could not sleep ( so called the main reason u dialled my number).ur speaking tone was extraordinary abnormal, very gentle. u were on mc after a laproscopic appendicectomy. u updated me everything from A-Z about u, i turned out to be a patient listener despite my confused patient was shouting and yelling to walk on her own to toilet after her hip fractured.. i went into the utility room, silently listen to u. u told me u were freaked out to undergo a general aneasthesia, in terms of waking up during the surgery whereby the surgeon is doing the operation and u could suddenly awake and feel the damm'it pain, like the scene in the movie 'AWAKE'..u told the anesthetist to pump in more sedation so that the horror is not there.. u told me u seriously missing me. u asked me to start all over again ( us). u asked me to re-build again (us). u asked me to re-connect it back (us). u asked me if we did not end it, will it still maintain till now, i said yes, if u did not turn ur back to me on that day. u strongly persuade me to give ourselves a try, and see how it goes, i told u we can go nowhere, except for another heartbreak again?.. u pleaded and pleaded, i did not give an exact answer. u have had many wonderful planning, for me and you, to go to another place , and establish a brand new relationship or family with u, with a marvellous plan of having a baby ( conceive by an artificial way) .. a 2-hour-chat-... i thought i was dreaming in the middle of the night, but i swore i did not. u were tearing. i explained my principles to u, i clarified my feeling towards u precisely,i reinforced my level of trust towards u , again. finally u said nevermind, doesn't matter, time will prove everything.


miss J, tell me how true is it? anyway, im not eager to know.